ok chelsey always does like kinda random silent shout out things so im gonna do that...cuz she told me to update and i dont know what to say lol..here ya go

-why do you always do this to me?  what did i ever do to u..why is it that everytime i turn my back for a split second u take a stab??  cant u see that ur hurting me??? dont u realize how much u mean to me???  i dont think u do because u always do these things to me...i dont know what i would do if i ever lost u..but ur not giving me a reason to hang on

-i hate the way we fight all the time..ever word that comes out of ur mouth is mean and hurtful...we used to love spending time together...the least u could do is give me a chance to show u how sorry i am...i think ur scared...you know what im talking about...but dont u think we should try for that special someone that we would die without?

-i miss you...i hate saying goodbye even if its only for a few days...i always worry about u and about what could happen between us...when u dont call i automaticly think something happened to u..the way i feel about u scares me because i know if i were to lose u i wouldnt be able to survive...were young so it sounds stupid but i truly could spend the rest of my life with u and i hope to...i wanna marry u and have babies with u and wake up every morning in ur arms..i wanna lay around and watch tv with u((the way we do now))until we're old and gray...i love u more than u will ever know

ok well i cant really top that so yeah here ya go ill try to write more some other time..

comment plz

love

tay

hey guys-

  whatcha been up to?  well i like hardly ever update but yeah my life is pretty boring so i dont have much to say...friday we got out of school early cuz of snow..thats always fun i guess but i dunno i missed algebra so that kinda sucked..friday chelsea spent the night and luke came over and we watched the notebook and wedding crashers...then saturday luke came over and we watched the girl next door it was great..and today ive just been layin around...i listened to a song someone told me about a long time ago called "A Year From Now" by Across Five Aprils...and i started thinking about it..and it does remind me a lot of u know who and what we used to have..but yeah im not even about to get into that mess again..but i wanted yall to read the lyrics so here ya go..

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

great song..makes me sad but itll be ok..i love luke more than the whole world..and i know he loves me so im good..but yeah comment plz

love

tay

hey guys-

   its been a long long time...well i got grounded so yeah..sorry for not updating sooner..i just got ungrounded friday so chelsey spent the night with me and saturday we got up and went and ate at Fazoli's in Conway with my sister..then we went and watched ASX compete cuz Autumn wanted us to and yay! they got second go team lol i was so proud i cried..but so did chels so its ok...i saw tristan there and i was glad cuz i hadnt seen him in a long time but as u all know((well maybe u dont)) i have a boyfriend now:) ugh lucas i love u soo much u mean the whole entire world to me and dont ever forget it..*muah* ok well anyway saturday when we got home me chels and autumn went bowling and Scotty came up there with Jeff and Kaylee so we could see his tattoo..its pretty...and then they left and tommy demarco and bryan came and played pool with us and me and autumn put the blue chalky stick stuff on our noses..it was fun sunday me and aut rode four-wheelers and met up with devin and we got to meet his two friends brandon and payton..they had pretty eyes and devins skateboard is pretty pretty pink so yeah..but anywho imma get off here and go do somethin..

love ya comment plz

taylor

hELLO MY lOVES-

   i hAVEN't dONE ANYthiNG iN A fEW dAYS CUZ i'VE bEEN SiCk bUt i thiNk i'M GEttiNG bEttER...tOMORROW i'M GOiN tO thE MAll WitH ChElSEY*NiCOlE ANd it'S GONNA bE fUN-fUN-fUN!  i'M SO EXCitEd...

lUkE StAtUS-

  UGh..i likE hiM A lOt..ANd i lOVE tHAt WE'VE bEEN StAYiN UP til 5 tAlkiN EVERY MORNiNG!  YEAh SO i GUESS WE'RE dAtiNG NOW..ANd i'M REAllY REAllY hAPPY!  i lOVE bASkEtbAll jUSt AS MUCh AS thE NEXt PERSON bUt i REAllY WiSh it WOUld bE OVER SO i CAN SPENd MORE tiME WitH hiM...

ANYWAY it'S lAtE ANd i hAVE tO GEt UP EARlY SO i'M GONNA GO..i'M GONNA tRY tO WRitE A POEM SOMEtiME SOON..SO bE lOOkiN fOR ONE..

AlWAYS <3

tAYlOR

Ok well everyone is doing a recap of their year so i thought i would too here ya go-

2005-

   I can't believe this year is finally over it kinda makes me sad but on the other hand im so excited to start over in 2006 ---ok well this year I went through a lot...I got hurt a LOT by the people closest to me and I finally let go of things that I'm still not sure if I shoulda held onto for so long...I grew really close to some of my friends...I made new ones...I definately lost a few...and i met someone that i care about more than anything in the whole world...i started hanging out with a completely different crowd..and experienced things that i never even thought about before...i turned into a "bad" kid and picked up on some bad habits all thanx to my great friends*cough cough melanie*..and i learned:  life isnt about pleasing other ppl but finding happiness in urself...making mistakes every once in a while helps u learn..kisses dont always mean "i wanna be more than friends"...cutting, alcohol, and drugs aren't the best way to get things off ur mind...making a fool of urself in front of ppl is embarrassing but makes for great entertainment and a good laugh...and no matter what happens between yall or even how long they are gone the ppl that know u the best and love u the most are always there and will most definately pick u up when ur ready to give in and let go*chelsey*...in 2005 i learned so much about myself my friends and the world around me...hopefully 2006 will be just as great..if not better..

Love Always-

Taylor